Drum Roll...

hahaha...So I lost 4.4 pounds this week and yes that .4 of a pound is a big deal. I am sure there will be a week when all I lose is . something of a pound.

Ummmm...Steph...hate to tell you that I am soooo not interested in fake fried chicken :0) I just want the real thing...and I won't have it until at least Easter.

Thanks to everyone who checks this blog to see how I am doing. It means alot. I hope I am able to keep this up!!! The weather is getting warm and there is more to do outside. whooo hooo!!!

I am trying really hard to not worry about things that are just not that damn important. There are so many things that happen on a daily basis that I have no control over and I need to learn to just shrug them off.

Stress...Ehhhhhhhhh

Okay...so being stressed makes losing weight and working out a lot more difficult! All I want is a big ole double cheeseburger...fries...banana split...oh and some more fries...maybe some fried chicken would be yuuummmmmy too! I miss fried chicken and french fries...I think it has been almost 3 weeks since I have eaten "fried" foods. My stomach likes me for the most part now...unless I eat dairy.

Enough talk about food...it just makes me hungry.

My house needs a new roof..which means at least a $5000 bill. Who the heck just has that much money laying around for anything?? Not sure what to do. I know in the long run it adds value to the house...but if I can't pay for it...what do I do? I have migraines every day...no idea why??? I am having female issues (haha...if you are a guy reading this)...and all of it piled on top of work and every day life is just stressful. I just want to take a vacation...which I saved some money to take but now since I need a new roof...I don't know if I can take :(

Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

On a positive note...I am looking forward to posting my loss for the week :) But you will have to wait until tomorrow :) Let's just say it's more than a pound.

Still working out here...cleaned for 6 hours Saturday...WHAT A WORKOUT!!! Played basketball on Sunday...loved it and will be doing it more often. Keep up the good work if you are working out...and if you aren't...take a walk. It really does make you feel better after a long day at work (or at home with the kids...like I would know :)

Love Ya!!

Decent day

So...drum roll please...1pound...one little pound :)

I'm okay with that. I really am. I enjoyed myself this last weekend and yet I am still working out and eating better. I didn't work out today...but tomorrow I am definitely going. I need to!! I can't wait to see how the scale keeps going down. Keep the fingers crossed :P

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One week in...

So tomorrow will be one week that I have had the scale.. AHHHHHHH!!! Will I have lost...gained...stayed the same???

By the way, I HATE having a scale. I NEVER used to weigh myself...unless I was at the doctor. Then...I always thought in my head"Ohhhhh...really...That much!!" Although I am sure it was written all over my face.

I am still working out and I actually like it. I knew I did...I always like the feeling I have after a really good workout. But...and this is a BIG but...I hate the part before I go to workout. Sometimes I have to have a conversation with myself in order to get motivated to get up and go. If I am watching television...I am trying to do situps and leglifts as I watch. It's amazing the amount of little exercises you can get in during an hour show :)

Someone told me today that my face looked skinnier...which is a nice compliment...but come on...my guess at my weight loss is 2 pounds...did it all come from my face...:) haha Oh well, I'll take the compliments where I can get them.

Hope you are all doing well!!

I bought a...

SCALE!!! Oh my goodness...I haven't bought or wanted to buy one of them in a long time. Well, I haven't EVER wanted to buy one. This will be short...but just wanted to let everyone know that I am still here and still working out. Bought my scale 2 days ago...so I will let all know the results (hopefully) at the beginning of next week.

SOoooo looking forward to the weekend!!

My body is feelin it

I HATE this picture...so I thought I would post it...Never again...never!!

So...today I am sore. I just got done working out and I am beat. I lifted today and did the elliptical... even raising my arms hurts. So I think the thing I am wondering now is how often should I work out. I know my body needs rest, but I kind of feel like if I want to work out then...I should. Some people say 3 to 4 times a week, yet others say 5. Others say some excercise is better than none. But I guess what I need to remember and maybe even need to say out loud is that none of these people have had to live in my body. No one seems to know what I am capable of...and just maybe I don't even know what I am capable of. I know people mean well, but I think the philosophy I am going to follow is the one that is best for me. I am going to try and work out 5 times a week. If on day 6 of that week I feel like working out...then I will.

Today I did an extra minute on the elliptical and then lifted for 30 minutes. I was absolutely dying as the girl next to me on the elliptical continued on in her hour+ quest to run as fast as she possibly could on that machine. I kept sneaking peaks next to me to see what level she was on and how fast she was running just because she was a machine!! I started to feel bad about how slow I was going and how she could probably hear me panting...while I tried like hell to stay on that machine for as long as I could and push myself further than yessterday. I wondered what people thought as they drove by and saw a big girl on an elliptical machine or lifting weights...and then my thought changed. I am working out...I am trying to change those things. Anyone who has anything to say that is demeaning in anyway as they walk or drive by is not someone whose opinion I value anyways. Plus, what could someone say. "Look at the fat girl working out." hahaha Kind of ironic don't you think.

Oh...I am a funny girl. I think this writing will be good for me. I am being accountable...to you...to me...

So I just want to say thank you to my friend Lindsay. You probably don't even know that it made a difference to me today, but it did. We have never discussed working out together...but I think without me putting it into words to you...you know how much I want this. Thanks for the upcoming daily invites to workout. I know that some day I am not going to feel like working out...but because I get a text from you...it will push me to want to workout.

2nd Workout (well...this time around)

So I forgot to weigh myself today when I went to the gym. I guess I will have to do it tomorrow. Oh well!! Unfortunately...I have a really good idea where I am at. haha!! Let's just say...it got out of control. For now I will report how much weight I lose. Maybe at some point I will report how much I weigh. Not that anyone really cares...but some day...when I can say I lost half my body weight...I know I will want to brag :)

So today I did the elliptical for 16 minutes, the precor bike for 12, and fast walked on the treadmill for 25 minutes. It's funny but I noticed a difference already in my heart rate and ability level...even though this is only my second official work out.

So far so good.

So let me share a private thought...my long term goal...is to be able to do something I have NEVER done. I want to be able to wear a bikini and look GOOOOD!! Never worn one, at least not since I was a kid...and definitely wouldn't look good in it now. But I will get there!! I don't know why it is different now...it just feels different. I have someone to work out with and encourage me but it is more than that. I just want this. I want to be healthy!! I want to be HOT!!

Enough for now :)

Thanks for sharing in this journey with me!!

My Committment...

So I decided to put it ALL out there...literally. This blog will be all about me and my path to getting fit, losing weight, and becoming a healthier person. I have tried in the past many times and I have always failed. So I started thinking and this is the only thing that I could come up with that would help keep me accountable. Send me questions...comments...or whatever you would like.

I will be posting my struggles...and hopefully many successes...

I may put up some pictures as I go...but for now, I will start with putting my goal on here.

So, here we go...Today is February 28, 2009, and by the date of my birthday (September 2) which is 6 months away...I would like to lose 50 pounds. Hahaha...I can't believe I am doing this for everyone to read...Here we go!!